life....

humans are meant to live in this world wit one another in tis world......but the people surrounding us wil leave us one day..and 1 dae v wil leave them also.....since young i hav many many close relatives who love me so much...but till today...many are gone.....

how i wish i can b with them forever n ever.....

how i wish the world has only natality but no mortality....

grandma n grandpa....how i wish u all can stay healthy when i grow up
so that i can take care of both of u...
bring u to many beautiful places....
da memories i had wil always cherish me...
the love u gave me...wil nvr fades
new year is cuming....another year u leave us....
now is not like those days...
where grandma..u wil make prawn crackers n biscuits wit me
i realy miss u...

both aunties....(da jiumu n xiao jiumu)
eventhough the time i spent wit u was short..
eventhough both of u left us for almoz 10years....
we wil nvr forget u

uncle....(da jiujiu)
u r da moz recent 1 to leave us....
u shud hav stayed longer
u shud hav attended da wedding b4 u leave...
but i m glad now dat u dun hav 2 suffer

how i realy wish u all can stay live forever wit us
like those days in kampung hse
children grown up without worries
play once v open our eyes..
when tired sleep
with laughter all over
with relatives all over....
wat a wonderful day....
if i ever hav a choice
i would rather not to choose air-cond hse
i would rather not to hav a concrete hse
but a long,simple wooden hse....

CRAZY!!!!!!!!!

as time passes by,i m goin more n more crazy...stpm juz 30++hrs ahead....my god......GOD pls help me!!!!!!!!!i m goin insane soon...words keep flashing in my head....wat m i goin 2 do if i get bad results??/wat hapen if i dont get da courses i wan??hmm.....regretting 4 not studying earlier.......hmm...m looking forward 4 da next 23 days.....haiz....

being molested

yer..hate da prefects in premier sch.....hmm...who du u think u guys are....u r juz our small little juniors...v r 19 years old u know....not kids anymore....how can u guys ask us to stand in such a public area n spot check us??even those drug traffikers who are goin to be sentenced wit death penalty oso have their right to b checked in a closed area......hey...we are gurls u know...u guys hav embarassed us infront of so many students...now ppl think dat v r bad students...juz a handphone...u guys shud juz giv up when u guys r so stupid dat u cant get any phone...that isnt our prob..y u guys juz cant admit dat v dun hav any phone wit us.....u guys hav go against our students right...

prefects..eventhough u r qualified to b prefects,it doesnt mean dat u guys can molest us.....u guys hav ruined our names...hmm..now i doesnt feel safe in sch....hmm....even i myself nvr touched my body so precisely.....so yuacksss when i think bout it..now oni i know y those gurls cry when being molested...now oni i understand da feeling.....hmm...hmm...dunno when oni i can overcome this feeling..it is hard to overcum partly is bcoz of being too conservatif in life...i really hope dat da sch will give an appropriate explaination to us...so unfair...otherwise..we wil see wat v can do...

nice to see,nice to hear,once is out consider worst

da stupidest school in seremban...so call the best sch but actuali da worst...the teacher there is proud of the school,critised other schs in front of students...but hav u realise dat ur sch isnt half of other schs which is ur so call bad sch???in simple way means this sch is even worse than those sch he said is bad...

head gurl absent for almoz 20 days oso din get any warning letter....she din do project work oso she get da 20marks...she told teacher she has some prob wit communicating wit her teammates..then i oso dun do my homework then when principal ask me,i wil say dat i cant cooperate n communicate wit my teacher...isit dat way???dont u think cluster sch given wrongly to this sch??

back to main topic...malaysia is an islamic based country wit no 'open-minded' act in open....hey u guys dun tell me dat u r malays but duno this rule....hmmm....eventhough v r not malays,v r still gurls...we hav our own limit..do u guys know wat is embarassment??o shy??hmm...v r 19 years olds students..not 9 years old...how can u all din even ask for our permission then straight away touch us??in addition,u gurls do it in public...my god..so many boys there....if it is in private place then can b accepted...my parents who brought me up oso din do such thing to me...even i myself din touch my body so precisely...my god.....u guys realy make us so embarass....hmmm...i really really cant accept it...guess i realy hav to b nun ady....ahahahaha.....

i realy cant accept being touched by others.....well....till now..i can b so open minded wit everything but not my body...guess my frens shud know it....hmmm....i dun care..i sure will report it...u guys over ady....eventhough the betrayer named us out,can u guys b a little bit rational n smarter??once u guys check dat v dun hav anyting,y still wana eye on us??/u guys too free isit??nothing to do isit???then go back n sleep la....waste time..DONT TELL ME ALL DA PREFECTS WHO SPOT-CHECKED US DIN BRING HP.....liar....

BETRAYER!!!!!!u think u so great isit point us out???if u realy wan name n merit,then do ur job properly...u hav alreadi black listed....dun try to be funy....du u know dat ur smile n ur face is very irritating???u r not qualified to b head gurl at all.....i realy look u down....FROM NOW ON u R NOT MY FREN ANYMORE....coz u dun even know wat frens r....

life

wat is life??
it is sumting very very fragile
at any moment..
it can disappear
or broken
life is juz as illustrated in poem
it is like candle
when it finish burning,
da flame will juz goes off
in human's life

when u r living will good health,
u will think of fame n wealth
these criteria is placed first before relationship,friendship
but the moment u realise that u hav limited time in this world
u wil regret
for not caring enuf towards the people surrounding u
for not putting them first before ur carrer or fame
for doing sinful things towards them
for not showering more love to them
for neglecting ur responsibilities u hav in them
for the ignorance u showed to them

the most hurtful moment is that u know u r dying soon
yet u dun hav enuf time to see them
to talk to them o to share precious moment together
u wan them to b at ur side
to b with u as long as u can
but
u r sad when u realise they r seeing ur painfulness
how suffer u r
u r worried that they wil be suffering wit u
u keep on apologising wit ur family members
for wat u hav done but do u know dat they alreadi forget wat u hav done??
when u lying there
nothing can compare to the love they hav in u
nothing can compare to the bonds they hav in u
mayb when u r rich
they will juz leave u alone..
wit ur living so u think they r angry wit u
their true heart,the love n the respect to u
still like before
nvr changed
even wat u hav done
bro is bro
uncle is uncle
relationship will nvr b affected wit wat had happened
dun feel guilty anymore
no one is perfect in the world
lets juz pray hard
for miracle
v love u so much
so pls dun leave us so fast

ppl..pls appreciate ur life,ur family n ppl surrounding u
since u hav time
do sumting u wish to do
love the ppl who loves u
dont wait till u hav no time
dun regret when u about to leave
dun waste the life god has given to u
so that when u know u r dying soon
pls
go in peace...
wit no guiltiness
wit no anger
but full of happiness
full of satisfaction
full of love
full of gratefulness

sincerely..

god..
i sincerely pray to u
pls pls
forgive whatever sinful act that he has done,
watever words he spoke which have offended You
watever thoughts which saddens You

God,
pls give him more time to do watever he hasnt
pls giv him another chance to correct watever he has done wrong
pls giv him time to spend wit his children
to hav a short enjoyment wit his family

God
You hav been generous to giv him this life
pls let him fulfill his dream before he leaves this world
once he left,he cant turn back
pls have mercy towards this man
not to let him to end this life with guilt...

God,
we the sinners were so unworthy
yet u choose to die for us
fill us wit ur holy spirit
god,ur love is everlasting
and ur mercies will never end..
ur this little believer
still need your guide
to show,to lead and to take him wit u

oh god...
now he has to fight for life
he enters the room safely,
pls let him out safely..
god every1 is hoping for miracles
and v believe that only you can fullfil us
oni ur angles are able to do so....
god we realy appreciate this man
that u hav given to us
v r so thankful for wat u hav given us
such a wondeful man

god
eventhough i m not the one qualified to ask anything from you
to hav such a big thought
god i know i hav been too much
to ask so much from you
to hav been greedy
but i sincerely pray to you
god
pls save his life...
pls let da miracle happen to him
pls giv him more time
god..pls
pls

sincerely....

piss off

hmm..i m wondering wat kind of children are there in the future world???how can they can juz ignore the danger of their parent???isnt their parent's life important to them??have they ever think or realise who were the one who bring them to this world full of colours n excitement??

children children,
u can b proud of urself
proud of ur properties,
proud of ur knowledge,
proud of ur life
proud of everything
BUT
u can never proud of urself infront of ur parents.
u can always blame ur parents for whatever they hav done
u can ignore them by juz saying wat they did to you
u can always push ur responsibility to others
but can u really face urself without lying??
can u face god the day u die??
can u face ur parents with all ur sins??

u can boost how rich u r....
but once u r unwilling to treat ur parents,
u r worst than a begger
u can tell anyone,
show anyone you payslip
how much u earn a month
but such a small amount of money
dont tell me u cant take out for the sake of ur parents
to treat them,
to give them an enjoyable life towards the end of their life

do u ever think wat is ur parents feeling when u ignore them??
they will think dat u r doing and planning the best for them
but ur sinful thought has made them feel betrayed....

u prayed hard..
asking god to bless u..
but what for...
how u do u expect the god to giv u all the blessing when u treat ur parents like dat??

now i m juz telling u the truth
DONT WAIT TILL U R TOO LATE
time doesnt wait for anyone...
do watever u can when u still hav time
once they r gone
u will regret
but no one can help u
when u realise that,
u can only bring sinful act wit u when u die
trust me
u can never be happy for the rest of ur life
no matter how rich u r,how proudful u were
money can only follow you to the graveyard
but love will forever cherish u till the day u die....

my new images

sis serene,bro morgan,bro kenny and i....

me afta clipping up my hair

me in moon yi's saloon

in palace of the golden horses

me in saloon

bridesmaid-lovely sis sue and i

daddy and i

before we go to church

me and my cool bro

me and my lovely brother

hmm..kinda satisfy with da changes...guess wat i did worth it......

confuse

duno y this kind of problem loves me so much.....heacdache...hmmmm....do i treat people too gud....guess i shud juz talk to few of them enuf ady....

dun like dat kind of eery looking or shud use as staring...if u like him then juz tell him la...non of my business....dun involve me in ur stuff k.....if u dun dare then is ur prob...not fair if u wan me not to talk to him......suddenly i dun talk to him...wit no reason.....if were u,wat will u think????i treat him as frens...nothing else than tat...okie...i hav clearified it here....so dun bother me anymore......

chao......

1 more day

hmmm...finally exam ended peacefully.....not peaceful actualy....guess i score badly again......hmmm....sorry....i promise 2 study next time...

finally 1 more day for me 2 break my 19 years rule....i m goin 2 wear dress....huh...unexpected rite???guess i wil b like clown....hehe.....so nervous...hopefully nothing bad happen

1st time in my 19years life

hehe...guess wat i did...hahahaa....
guess most of my close frens know wat happened...hehe
erm i broke my own record
now i own 2 blouses...hehe....
thanks to sis stella...
if not bcoz of ur wedding,i guess i wont hav a dress till mayb another few more years....

okie now back to the day i broke my record...
it was friday afternun about 2pm
my mum n i went to jusco to look for dresses....
i was supposed to be studying at hum....
lazy me....find excuses to escape from jail.....
partly was because the hot weather...
i bought 2 dresses...erm 1 is white in colour and the other 1 is black n white....
i saw charmaine there....
frens pls dun ask me to show u kie??
paiseh la.....

hehe...
anyway i will blog again after my exams....
4 more days to go...

SIS STELLA,
eventhough u dun read blogs
but i sincerely pray hard for you
for your happiness wit ur husband
may god bless you all
for ur family,urself n ur husband....
CONGRATS YA...
LUV U...

sick again

so sad...flu again..luckily not H1N1....but very tired..how to study???anyway i am so lazy to study 4 my mid-year...oh god..help me....

mum i love you

mum,
from the day you know u are pregnant till today,
your responsibility doesnt fades.
from the day i was born,
the love you give me is uncountable
from the day i learn how to walk,
you hold my hand tight
especially when i am about to fall
from the day i know how to think,
you teach me patiently how to be a good human

mum,
ur precious time
has just past without any enjoyment,
just simply for your family and your children
you didnt have time for yourself
not like others, dancing,singing,enjoying their life
just because a pair of children..
the time you spent,the effort you have given to them,
nothing can be compared.

mum,
you didnt blame your children for arguing with you
or raising up their voice,
instead you humblely speak to them
forgive them even they didnt apologise with you..

mum
the hard time when we were young,
the sorrowful when we were poor,
the awkward sight of neighbours,
didnt even affect your love to us...
this is the power of a mum...

mum,
i sincerely apologise to you
for what i have done
for the sins i did to you
for raising up voices to you
for being mad at you over small matter
for not helping you
for whatever i did which hurts you
mum,thank you so much for what you have done for me
i really appreciate your love
what you done for me
what you have given to me
eventhough we are not rich,
yet we isnt very poor.
thank you so much mum
i love you so much....
i m so grateful to god
to have given me such a wonderful mum

happy mother's day.....
love you

sincerely,
your daughter

what is so great about u n your sch???

dont you think that you r so great????i think the ministry of education is having some mistakes in selecting teachers...is it because there is not enough of teachers??yet they shouldnt take such a bad teacher....or i think they should hav ask some of these 'good' teachers to attend moral classes before teaching.they dont even know the basic moral values....

dont you dare to reprimand students for being not respectful o dont follow what you say when you yourself is not respecting others..you think your school is very great?you think the students wish to enter your school???pls dont b so perasan k....i bet if all schools have form six o v students were given choices,all of us will not step into your school.....would you just sit down n think what is so great about your school???great for having a prison school???great for having bad dicipline??great for stealing cases???great for having a bad canteen???great for having prefects caught smoking???dont u ever think it is a shame o a pride when u tell others about your so call one of the best schools???

why are you so proud of your school???please....people get to know your school is not because of what ever school it is...but people know the school for having the worse dicipline among the best schools....even those schools that you criticised are better than your school...

your school can be one of the best schools partly is because your students are chosen...i dont understand why cant you think before you speak...i dont think other schools will like to have problematic students.but the principals have no choice but to accept them....we are form six students.we can think properly before we speak so not to create any sensitive topics but why cant you,middle-aged man cant think before you speak?if you cant speak without guide,pls do write the speech out.or mayb you wana grab attention especially teachers' day is juz around the corner???even you teachers group students in either good performance to grab attention or behave badly to grab attention...so i guess you hav too many competitors to be the good ones,so you decided to b the worst..

school authorities wants us,students to be excellent but i guess with such a bad role model,we are qualified to be those who raise sensitive issues in the public then detain by ISA.for us to behave well,i guess those 'good' teachers should be kicked out.

v acs students have the joy whenever we want to go back to the school.none of the teachers will force us to go co-curriculum.we dont need to be locked like prisoners.we are so proud to tell others that we were former acs students.not like in thins school.totally diffrent.as if there is a big mirror reflecting wat we have gone through.....

hmmm...still first impression is important...i really regret for not goin to SPI....haiz.....

so teacher if you are good, dont be afraid for others critising you in newspaper or what ever it is.dont have to make it a school rule....

special you....

hmm...duno why every year,around this period i will miss you so much....everytime when i have something sad or happy,surely i can feel your presence...may be i think too much or may be you do stay by my side....

it is something special to me imagining my childhood with your presence by my side...playing with my and giving me love which i cant have it in this life time...eventhough i am not lucky enough to live with you,play with you and talk to you...i am still happy that i know i had you before....

maybe i runs some of your blood...i can feel how close we are eventhough you are no longer here....you will never know how i wish i can have you....i wanted to visit you but i cant..mum never let me there....i cant stop thinking of you especially when i am sad or fell being bullied....

i do comfort myself each time i see people happily chitchatting and playing with some who most of them dont appreciate their presence.....maybe you know i really nid you....that is why i can always feel your presence...

i really cant stop imagining the good time we have with goegoe especially in childhood time....how do you look like by now??r u as tall as me??shorter or even taller???r you living happily in the other world???maybe god loves you more than i do....i can only have you pictures forever....not even memories...sad me....hope you do rest in peace.....

forever love you...

valentine's day

da singles celebration...muahahahahaa...me,joyce,xinyi n mandy went to eat steamboat 2gether 2 celebrate valentine's day...sob**v dun hav valentine....anyway it was fun to go out together...erm later the couple of the day *mankwan n poow hui* joined us....hmmm....both of them + joyce knot go steamboat....hhhahaa....sure rugi 1...

hahaha...then v saw many acs fellas...

ppl today like 2 dress up awkwardly...hahaha...sexy dress to steamboat??mini skirts??hahhaa
mayb they feel too hot there....

23.1.09....i wil remember u always.....today i hav dissected a rat....i named it as -eleven-....hmm....abit nervous at first...some of my classmates cried...then when i hold the rat then i am fine with it.....luckily it is dead...if i were to kill it,i am sure i cant do it....i looked calm and brave....firstly we need to massage it in water to make it soft(frozen rat)

teacher showed us how to dissect.....but abit nervous.....

oopsss...painfull!!!!!can feel da pain when i nailed it....

forever in my memory.....

love you.....

my new classroom

friday was my 1st day to enter my new classroom,6A Izzuddin.....yeppy...i like it....but.....something happened...



let me start with cleaning the classroom.....everyone including the guys were helpful...but one of our 'good' friend did not help...she just stand there as if she is a princess or what...she just waited for others to sweep n clean the class then she freely go and reserve her place.....this had caused everyone to boycott her.....we were so angry with her...



when we were cleaning the class,we spoke very loudly...disturbing swee tin cheh's class(6A Isk)..she came over to our class,of course not like those impolite ones..she just stand there and told one of my classmate to lower down the voice....hahaa....we were so guilty bout it....sorry ya teacher....anyway,i heard she praised us for being cooperating....



next,school sports house meeting.....i am in meate house...at first i was in braddon..at that time,i was so unhappy cause i was the only chinese in that house.....sad....but when i found out mandy n jiayi are in that house,i fell so grateful..but unfortunately mr.nawi said that our houses were rearranged according to kementerian or something...this time i m in meate....now i hav jiahui and chwee yee with me....not bad..



when the house 1st meeting is on,election for committee was held...but all malays except 1 indian...haiz....the form 6 students including me are so bersemangat....we want to bring fame to our hse as everyone looks down at our house.....haiz....

but u know....jiahui n i was so bersemangat 4 lempar ccakera and lontar peluru events.....da irresponsible teacher said our names were not registered.....haiz....hopeless.....

pain.....

hmm...yesterday was my 12th day since i fell down....hmm...still bad...da sinseh pushed my leg so hard.....it was so painful till i cant say anything...omg.....what happen to me??/y i have to suffer that???these were the questions appering in my mind that moment....those who had undergo it will know the pain.....anyway..i have to get well soon..i want to take part in school sports day...hopefully.....